I'm emotionally unstable. I'm irritable, depressed, even a little suicidal. Do not be alarmed. Yes, I want to die right now. No, I won't kill myself right now.
I've fucked up something which I deeply regret and I will probably never get over it. I can't apologize enough, either, it's just one of those things you fuck up once and you never move on from, no matter how hard you try. Did you ever do something you regret? Did you ever hurt someone you loved on purpose, out of spite? Out of anger? Out of desperation? Or just cause you had a fit of madness or rage? If you have then you will understand. If you haven't then please please please don't. It's the most miserable feeling in the world. There's nothing worse than knowing you fucked up and you won't be forgiven. Losing a friend's trust is the worse thing that can happen to you. There's just no getting it back. Once it's gone there's nothing you can say or do to make that person forgive you. There are no more chances, no more tries. Your world just crumbles down while you watch a whole friendship go to hell because of you. I'm a stupid, selfish, huge fuck-up bitch and I ruined a very special thing I had.
I don't know what that means in terms of Popmundo right now. All I know is that I'm doing my best to go on, even if right now it feels a little pointless. I'm sorry if you feel our play was affected by this.
peace.
J
I've fucked up something which I deeply regret and I will probably never get over it. I can't apologize enough, either, it's just one of those things you fuck up once and you never move on from, no matter how hard you try. Did you ever do something you regret? Did you ever hurt someone you loved on purpose, out of spite? Out of anger? Out of desperation? Or just cause you had a fit of madness or rage? If you have then you will understand. If you haven't then please please please don't. It's the most miserable feeling in the world. There's nothing worse than knowing you fucked up and you won't be forgiven. Losing a friend's trust is the worse thing that can happen to you. There's just no getting it back. Once it's gone there's nothing you can say or do to make that person forgive you. There are no more chances, no more tries. Your world just crumbles down while you watch a whole friendship go to hell because of you. I'm a stupid, selfish, huge fuck-up bitch and I ruined a very special thing I had.
I don't know what that means in terms of Popmundo right now. All I know is that I'm doing my best to go on, even if right now it feels a little pointless. I'm sorry if you feel our play was affected by this.
peace.
J